i'm filled with ham. but just about to eat some more. i'm fighting drowsiness, due to the aforementioned stuffage, and the hour-and-a-half nap i had this afternoon (merry Christmas to me!). my kids have toys strewn all over the house - lego pieces, craft supplies, stuffies, kinder surprise garbage.... the twinkle lights are on, the angel is smiling down on me from the creche, and a deep sense of contentment is settling in.
this has been my first christmas hosting my parents. they have never experienced my kids christmas morning, or the glory of new pjs Christmas eve (they wore them to church - my kids that is, not my parents). they have not seen our multiple advent traditions or the sweet look on my husbands face when he hands me my presents (did they notice?). and I have never cooked Christmas dinner before. thankfully, i was well prepared. my dear friend Marsha made me a tuxedo-esque apron, for the domestic goddess that i am.
here i am, making chocolate mousse. i was going to make kraft dinner but the apron called for something a little more...
today i feel aware of our excesses: in love, in liberty, in possessions, in privilege. at times i don't know what to do with that, caught in limbo between thankfulness and guilt. for tonight, however, i will sing of my heart being blessed with the sound of music, nestle into the thankfulness, and accept the contentment.
i wish you an evening of comfort and joy, and a deep acceptance of the gift of the Christ child given for you.