dear scott

i met the girls tonight for appys at the usual time and place and we laughed and cried and prayed and held each other in the rain.  such beautiful women, such important friendships (will i ever know how important?), it's so hard to release.  i drove away through Langley and i felt so awake, like the lights were brighter and i was breathing deeply and aware.
i am standing on a precipice, on the brink of life change,
         and i began to think of you.
i turned onto hwy 15, the bridge where you feel as though you are about to lift off and fly, and in my mind i was jumping into your arms and into this newness and adventure, and i was excited.  then i turned onto 140th and pictured your mother and started sobbing in the car.  marrying you has been the most exquisite gift God could have ever give me.  He knew exactly the man i needed, and the in-laws that i needed, and the life experiences, and challenges, and griefs and joys....i feel that tonight i trust Him in a way that is easy, un-complicated, and beautiful.
so the next chapter begins which will require us to be closer than ever.  i love you husband.  where you go, i will go.  your people will be my people, and your God my God. 
to God's glory, and for our joy.

i will kiss you tomorrow.