this summer has been a bit of a roller coaster emotionally. some breathtaking highs and some plummets that pull your stomach up into your throat. all in all a good ride that's left me a little shaken.
and, as a shining jewel to top it off, my summer ended in my 39th birthday last thursday.
last thursday was one of the best days of my life. i woke up at 8, grabbed a delicious coffee and my robe, and scooted downstairs to paint for two hours. it felt like a dream. my son quietly opened the door to my studio and threw in a paper airplane with birthday love written on it. my husband made me breakfast. and i painted and sang and sank into the goodness of my family and my gifting and my life. later i went shopping with the kids and bought some new plants and gardened in sunshine. then i headed off to my dear friend leah's birthday party - it was perfect! an amazing party that i didn't have to plan or execute or clean up after, filled with close friends and delicious food.
at this moment you might hate me, but remember: the roller coaster.
the next morning i brought the kids to the doctors because i had this insanely itchy scalp. i had looked up symptoms of candida on the internet (candida is something i'm dealing with, hence the annoying sugar free diet), and confirmed that an itchy scalp is totally related. scott is the one who basically forced me to go to the doctor, so i explained everything to her, in a tone that was saying "i'm sorry i'm wasting your time, since i've self-diagnosed my issue, but my husband made me come...". She smiled and gently pointed out there are many reasons for itchy scalps. she had me pull my hair up off of my neck and she shone the light on the back of my head. i think it was instant. no, i'm almost positive it was instant - her reaction i mean. she stepped back. she said "oh, yes, your head is infested with gnats".
i calmly yelled "GNATS?!!!!" and then immediately realized i had just informed the entire waiting room of my condition. i confess i fleetingly had the thought that maybe gnats weren't the same thing as lice. maybe they were a higher more rare breed or something. the caviar or infectious head-biting diseases. no, no, they're not.
let's just get it out there: my whole family has lice.
so, friday, the day after one of the best days of my life, was filled with chemical treatments, lice combs, laundry, vacuuming, more laundry, and sticking hats and dolls and one of my favourite dresses in quarantine. this was a plummet my friends.
by monday, we'd gotten into a groove as a family. scott and i would get up, make the coffee, and sit on the back deck in the rising sunshine and nit-pick. not "i hate it when you leave your flat iron on the counter" nit-pick. no, the reason the entire phrase was invented. we pick little spider-like bugs and their eggs off each other's heads (and you know how much i love spiders!). scott wanted to add "professional de-louser" on his linked-in profile. actually, truth be told, he's very good at it.
anyways, on monday we're in the groove, no longer completely grossed out, and trying to find the beauty in early morning shocks of sunshine. it could even be romantic if it wasn't completely disgusting. i decide, after i've been cleaned, to workout. to not just do yoga this time, but a weight-lifting routine.
and i put my back out.
and i was lifting three pound weights.
and, yes, now i feel like a louse-y old woman.
do you see what i'm saying about the roller coaster? don't get me wrong, i know it could be a pit, i know there's worse things than being on this ride, but i still want off. give me a prairie field of flat predictability. at least for a few days.