tonight, dear friends, i feel old.
for a number of little reasons.
first, i have a five year old and an eight year old. my youngest is now five. many (most?) of my friends are either still in pregnancy stage or have a toddler still hanging off their skirt. not that i want a toddler hanging off me particularly, but it makes me feel old.
my youngest took some pictures of me tonight. i was sitting in my favourite chair with the sunlight streaming in, i had a flower clipped into my hair, and was wearing one of my favourite dresses. a recipe for success. i looked at the pictures and here's what i beheld: wrinkles around my mouth, deep caverns under my eyes, greasy hair and pallid skin. i know, you're all trying to think of ways to encourage me right now but you did NOT see these pictures so forget it!!
my back is hurting from the workout i did this morning.
and i just had to play with my poo using a little stick because of this series of disgusting tests my doctor is having me perform to see if i have something. i'm not being evasive with the "something" i seriously can not remember what it is she thinks i might have - something ending with "sis". see how old i am?
seriously, i walked into the bedroom, holding my plastic baggy of grossness, back hurting, frumpled and grumbly. i said to my (younger) husband "i feel old."
so i gave myself a little pep talk.
first, no, you don't have to point it out to me - my back is hurting because i worked out. old people don't do that. and it was a jillian michael workout. nuff said.
i stared at myself in the mirror and said "you look hot in this dress" (my husband from the other room - "yes!"). my shoulders look a little buff - i performed my first real push-up today. old people can't do that. my parts aren't saggy (probably more because some physically can't sag, but still).
i jumped up and down and played with rhythm sticks in my sons preschool class today. that's right, he's not even in school yet. just pre-school. i'm so young.
i waxed my own legs this morning - how juvenile is that?
the light must have just hit me wrong in those pictures. and my doctor is totally over-reacting - i probably have an ulcer - that's such a typical young person thing.
unless it's early menopause.
i need to go and re-apply some face cream.